Walkin' On Sunshine...

Icons

2008-07-19T05:43:13Z

Ah, part one of five for my next icon batch. This part is all Changmin. There are only 16 xD As always, I mostly just played around with colors and such.

Previews:

1	2	3	4

5	6	7	8

9	10	11	12

13	14	15	16

For those who might have noticed and are wondering, I colored icons11-15 myself. I upped the big pics in case anyone wanted to use them to make more icons~ Changmin one Changmin two (the second one looks better upclose xDD )

No credit needed, comments are love<333 Enjoy~

E D I T :: I just noticed that the stripes on Changmin shirt are green and orange. I'm too lazy to change it xDD

omfg

2008-07-18T06:55:41Z

OMFG ADFKJAFLKDASJ;LFJDLKDASF
THE DARK NIGHT IS JUST BEYOND WORDS.

(sorry about the font, too tired and excited to do anything about it.)

OK. It's almost 3 am here and I just got home from the midnight premiere of The Dark Night (Batman).
First off, if you haven't seen it or haven't planned to see it, you suck.
Heath Ledger is fucking brilliant. And I seriously cried at the end because he is just too amazing and it's not fair that he is gone.
I don't think I've ever walked out of a two and a half hour movie, wanting more.
The next Batman movie has a lot to tackle to be even half as amazing as this one. (because let's face it, these movies will never stop coming)
God and Christian Bale, I'd never thought you could be a better batman than George Clooney ~~because he is so freaking hot.~~
OK. I think I'll go die on my bed now.

(for those who read my last post, I ended up having to take my little brother with me but I still had a great time with Brock although I saw his face a totally of 0.01 seconds during the whole movie and then about 10 mins after it. yay for wanna-be-dates.)

Yay-ness!!!

2008-07-18T01:40:42Z

Well today went a lot better than expected. First, our instructor made us hand wrestle to see who decides driving order. He is really into sports so of course he would have beaten me easily but he let me win anyway. So, I made him go first.
He was so freaking funny the whole two hours and I don't think I've ever had that much fun in a car (he is blown away by the fact that I am fluent in Spanish, yay me~). Btw. When he had to back up and turn around to look at our rear blind spots he would always smile at me. -squeal-
SO HERE'S THE GOOD PART.
We pull in to the drop off (a gas station) and the instructor drives off and he all of a sudden gets really shy and timid and absolutely adorable. And asks me to the movies. So yeah. In about an hour and a half I have to go see the midnight premier of The Dark Night.
I had to cancel with my friends (who understood) but promised I'd still scream like a fan girl when Heath Ledger comes in. Hopefully that won't totally ruin the date or.. whatever this is going to be.
OH! And. I'm no longer a bad person ;DD
I told him. And he said (and I quote) "Oh well, gotta enjoy it while it lasts,"
WHICH IS TOTALLY AMAZING OF HIM.
But I also said that I didn't want a long distance relationship. And he also understands and says it's ok.
SERIOUSLY. WHERE THE HELL HAS HE BEEN?!

WAIT AND THERE'S MORE! He's a year younger than me. I'VE NEVER BEEN WITH SOMEONE YOUNGER THAN ME. EVER. NEVER.
So that's a first. I'm not sure if it's a good thing or not but he does seem pretty mature. So, I guess I'm ok.
BUT YEAH. I feel like a freaking love sick puppy. Which... I haven't felt like that in a long ass time. (blame DBSK and their unsurpassable perfect-ness).
Now, my mission is to make sure no one in my family finds out. My uncle... has more than one gun. Which is kinda scary although I actually like shooting birds. WHICH IS SO HORRIBLE OF ME. But they are crows so yeah.
OK. I'M RAMBLING ABOUT CROWS!

Why am I this excited? TT___TT
Why can't I smuggle him to Panama with me?

This sucks.

Wow.. I went from really hyper and excited to totally depressed all by myself. Stupid train of thought.

OK I'M SHUTTING UP NOW. I HAVE TO GO LIKE... FIND SOMETHING TO WEAR.
God, you'd think I've never gone on a date before o__O
OKOK BYE!

(sorry for more life rambling spam flist, don't hate me too much? <33)

OH AND SOUL MATE IF YOU READ THIS I PROMISE I'LL HAVE THE OMG!1000 FIC BY THIS WEEKDEND xDDDDDDD <333

Hmmmm

2008-07-16T20:54:29Z

Boy rantage?! I've been needing to let this out.

OK. So. There's this guy (in my driver's ed class). He is just way too adorable ~~to not be a korean actor.~~ And he's realy hot. And so cute~
Like, it's about damn time. Ever since I got into DBSK almost every guy I meet is like.. blah. And then there's this guy and it's like... FINALLY!
He's so cuuute -squeal-
I keep catching him staring at me and it's adorable how he turns around right away and rubs his neck or coughs. So freaking awesome. He spoke to me the other day and he seems really shy about it which is weird because he looks to be really open with his friends. -squeals some more-
AND tomorrow, I have to drive from 3:00 to 5:00 and it was supposed to be with this girl Laura. Turns out (according to her) that he asked her to switch because the later times were 'inconvenient' for him.
So it turns out that he is my driving buddy tomorrow which makes me really nervous because I always screw things up when they count the most.

Unffortunately, there is one flaw about the guy. HIS NAME... IS BROCK.
See, for someone as myself, who grew up watching a certain show everyday after school, Brock is just a weird name.
Becuase no matter how hot this guy is (and damn is he hot) THIS

ALWAYS POPS UP IN MY MIND WHEN I HEAR THAT NAME.

But other than that he is the sweetest guy ever. And if he doesn't ask me out by this weekend I'll have to make the first move. -feels sneaky-

Another thing that sucks: I leave the 1st of August.
He doesn't know. >________<
I think I'll be selfish though, and not tell him.
And YES I know I'm a horrible person for doing that but I'm too interested in him now. And I half miss the feeling of having a crush (since I haven't had one in forever).

Also, for those waiting patiently for a fic update (Jenny!) my usb should be fixed sometime in the next two weeks. AS SOON AS I GET IT BACK I will update both fics.

OH! While I'm here, is anyone going to see The Dark Night today? I BOUGHT MY MIDNIGHT TICKETS TODAY! I'M SO EXCITED! I will scream like a loyal fan girl when Heath Ledger (RIP) comes in. I don't care if they shush me... especially becuse I'm going with about 15 other loayl fan girls who are going to scream with me and clap our hands red. I have an army. Muahaha.

OK. I'm done.
Over and out.

Wallies & Icons

2008-07-16T05:21:36Z

This was supposed to be a complete batch with like.. a lot more but I don't think I'll get around to it so here's what I've got.

Wallpaper
[1] Changmin
[1] Yoochun
[1] JaeMin

Icons
[3]Changmin
[1]Junsu

(as always, credit is not needed - comments are nice~)

giving up

2008-07-16T02:07:26Z

SO SICK OF TRYING.
FORGET IT.

(I hope you can understand.)

I'm sick of trying and caring and working my ass off for nothing. I'm stopping now.
And you know what hurts the most?
I was there when people did this to you. And now you've turned around and done the same thing to me.
Seriously, what else do you want from me.

I am everything you want, I am everything you need
I am everything inside of you that you wish you could be
I say all the right things at exactly the right time
But I mean nothing to you, and I don't know why

Hourglass

2008-07-15T06:18:10Z

Title: Hourglass
Rating: PG
Pairing: JaeMin (Min centric)

A/N: This started as a prompt response and got out of hand. This is for emda and mrsedjack and rastaakhriz.

I found an hourglass the other day. It lay among things stored away and forgotten in the dark depths of our attic. I don’t remember who had put it there; it quite possibly could had been myself. I held it gently, a quick feeling of accomplishment descending over me as I shook dust from it; the kind of feeling a treasure hunter gets when he finds his coveted chest.

But it was a sick kind of irony that bubbled in my stomach as I set it down on an old, grimy coffee table and watched cynically as the small particles of sand fell one by one into its bottom half.

The thought of each speck representing a millisecond of my life span was chilling. My eyes settled at the accumulating mound then glanced at the rapidly vanishing remains in the upper half. Anger gripped me then, an urge to see the glass shatter and the sand scatter across the old, battered floorboards.

It was somewhat mindboggling how such a small thing could get under my skin, and at the same time troublingly tolerable.

I hadn’t always been so weary of time.

That had changed a while ago. It was a point in my life that I remember clearly, a vivid scene scratched into my mind. I was young as I sat in the lobby at the company’s headquarters. Naïve, as you walked into the room bringing with you a disturbingly intriguing light that unexpectedly brightened up my life. Surprising, because your cold appearance brought warmth to me in ways I could never had imagined.

It grew stronger as we moved in together, along with the other three; a bond that had grown as thick as a blood tie between kin.

The glass was cold against my fingers, heavy in my hand as I flipped the device to start another hour.

I found myself intoxicated with you. I found that I needed to be everything to you.

I wanted to be the one to make you laugh, to be your shoulder and catch you when you fall. To be the person with whom you share your every secret, your random bubbles of happiness that were as contagious as the pox (and what a death it would be).

I briefly wondered if the hourglass resembled quicksand. I shook an image of my body, partially hidden, engulfed by the horrid mixture of clay and salt and water, from my head.

I could choke on my thoughts. My mind had always had an odd train of thought that jumped from topic to topic at the most minuscule of bridges.

And as I found myself staring once again at the falling sand specks, I heaved a sigh and settled it onto its side, making the commotion within the glass sculpture to stop; time suspended at my will. Or so I’d like to think.

Comatose

2008-07-15T00:15:01Z

Title: Comatose
Author: Moi~
Rating: PG-15 (inexplicit)
Pairing: JaeSu
Disclaimer: Italicizied lines taken from Comatose by Skillet
Prompt: Comatose by Skillet from emdaat you_only_love

A/N: I'm actually dissapointed at how this came out because I really couldn't write what I had wanted to but I hope you like it anyway bb!

I'll never wake up without an overdose of you.

It’s an addiction. The burning in his veins when he doesn’t get his fix; an unbearable urge that won’t go away.

JaeJoong refuses to let it be anything but than that. A replacement for his smoking habit – this was better anyway.

Soft skin that hugged tight muscles; smooth, unmarred and radiant under his fingers tips. The expanse of the other boy’s upper torso was of velvety sin that tempted him with promises that would devour the soul he’d lost somewhere between debut and their skyrocket to fame.

It is with abandon that JaeJoong feasts on the forbidden fruit that has so conveniently fallen into his haven. His mouth moving greedily over the sweetness, love bites marking it as his own.

Noises spill from young, plump lips and JaeJoong drinks them like honey.

It’s a release. A flow of liberation that washes everything from his mind; lies and truths mixed into a background haze also known as their lives.

But it’s pushed aside, because tight darkness rips him apart and keeps him together at the same time. A pain so blissfully sweet that it couldn’t be real.

And for a second, JaeJoong thinks it might not be. It might be just a figment of his imagination, a trance when sleeping. A reoccurring reverie that chases away the nightmares that have come to consume his energy.

It’s hard to think otherwise when lingering warmth and the smell of enticingly foreign cologne are his only evidence in the morning. A loss that leaves him feeling emptier than he’d like to admit.

So when his eyes flutter open to a smile so bright it makes the sun seem dim, JaeJoong concludes that even if it were a dream he’s helplessly addicted too, there is no point in stopping anytime soon.

Waking up to you never felt so real.

Crossword

2008-07-12T05:24:09Z

Title: Crossword

Pairing: YooMin
Rating: PG
Word-count: 100

A/N: for prompt crossword at dbsk_flashfic

“Changmin,” Through specs the younger one glances at his hyung.

“Hm?” The ball tipped pen pats against Yoochun’s lip with a comfortingly familiar feeling (a bad habit, the other would say), as he stares in thought at the source of his current frustration.

Damn these mindboggling puzzles that exceed his wide range of knowledge (Changmin would claim pick-up lines and liquor recipes did not count).

“Five lettered sea mammal?” Changmin pushed his glasses up the rim of his nose (a bad habit of his own, Yoochun would tell him) and smiled meekly.

“Junsu.” Yoochun chuckles as he fills it in.

(Sea mammal : Whale)

A/N 2 : I wanted to use dolphin instead of whale but it wasn't working out xDD

REO SPEEDWAGON!

2008-07-11T04:46:12Z

I love my mom.

Tonight she dragged my brother and I up state making us believe we were going to experience the more boring night of our lives.

Turns out she dragged us to an REO SPEEDWAGON CONCERT! They aren't my favorite band but my mom absolutely loved them when she was younger and has made us listen to them a lot, so we knew all the songs and had a great time. AND. FRONT ROW CENTER SEATS! DUDE! It was awesome-ness. I got to touch Kevin's hand and caught one of his picks. My mom rocked out. It was one of those moments when you almost feel embarrassed but at the same time it's so damn cute to see her like that, that you really don't care. As long as she kept all her clothes on, I was good.
She also commented on how excited I was and how much I screamed (I currently don't have a voice xD), and that I would be a monster at a DBSK concert. Which is undeniably true of course.

On the DBSK topic, I had the freaking weirdest dream. I was at a birthday party and there was a Yoohun piñata and my uncle was trying to make me hit it open (to eat the yummy Chun-candy) BUT I REFUSED. And then I started crying and then I woke up. Yay me.

Sharks

2008-07-10T04:58:06Z

Title: Sharks
Author: Me
Pairing: YooSu
Genre: Fluff (attempt at crack)
Rating: PG

A/N: LENA! I know this took forever (literally) and I'm really sorry. I hope this is good enough for the wait.
prompt: Sunny day on the beach by peachtea21(also dedicated to her~)

Yoochun hadn’t meant to walk in on the random moment of utter cuteness, although he was now glad that he had.

The younger boy sat in front of the television screen (probably a little too close to be eye healthy), a smile that reached his eyes was plastered onto his face. The younger boy’s small noises of excitement made Yoochun feel a warm tug in his chest as he left the boy to his Discovery Channel spazzing.

“Hyung…?” Yoochun glanced at the passenger seat where his blindfolded and bound boy friend sat, his face screwed up in annoyance as he whined. “Are we there yet?”

Yoochun chuckled. “You know… you complain an awful lot.” Junsu pouts, his fingers wiggling against each other for means of entertainment.

It is a nice after noon, the sun kisses their skin with warmth and the breeze tickles their faces. Trees dance as they zoom by and the smell of salt wafts over them as they grow nearer to their destination.

“Hyung…” Yoochun wrinkles his nose, glancing once again to the boy next to him.

“Yeah Su?”

“…my butt hurts.” The whine was desperate, he knew, but Junsu couldn’t care less. He was growing impatient in his darkness and immobility and slightly frightened by the upcoming ocean he could now smell.

What if Yoochun didn’t love him anymore and had decided to kill him and dump his body in the ocean?!

“Want me to kiss it better?” The older boy laughed at the rising blush in Junsu’s cheeks as the latter scowled bitterly.

“Perve—” His glowering was cut short by the press of lips on his neck.

“We’re almost there, promise.”

Junsu was quiet for the rest of the ride.

Two hours later Junsu was ready to scream. They had to have arrived at the beach at least an hour ago and yet he was still sitting, completely vulnerable and bored in the older boy’s running car.

If Yoochun was planning to kill him, this was definitely the cruelest way to do it – something he would imagine Changmin coming up with.

“Ok, we’re here,”

Junsu squinted when the sun’s light overwhelmed his eyes as the blindfold was removed and gave an audible sigh of relief when his hands were released as well.

“Finally,”

Yoochun rolled his eyes. “Come on,”

Junsu’s hand fit easily in his, fingers entwining in a familiar dance. The beach seemed to be deserted except for a lone boat that they happened to be heading for, Junsu noted.

“A boat ride?”

Yoochun nodded, enthusiasm leaking through his features (despite his effort to keep his cool lest he ruin the surprise).

Junsu gave a squeak of excitement, dragging Yoochun the rest of the way.

“What do you mean we’re going in?” Junsu stood, hands on his hips (he resembled a scolding Jae, but Yoochun dared not tell him) and mock veiled worry in his voice.

“Yeah, it’ll be fun.” Yoochun smiled, pulling the rest of his suit on.

“Fun?! Yoochun. We are out in the middle of the ocean – there are sharks, big sharks that could eat us for an appetizer.” His arms were flailing now, his special way of emphasizing. “How is that fun?!”

Yoochun chuckled, grabbing a snorkeling mask. “Su, we’re barely three miles out.”

The boy stared, jaw open as if he had been smacked.

“You’re overreacting. No sharks, I promise.” Yoochun curved his arms around the voluptuous body that was his boyfriend and nipped at the other’s ear lobe. “I’m the only one who gets to eat you.”

Junsu gave a loud irritated growl nothing short of an overdramatic sigh, and gave in to the alluring piece of jerk that he had chosen to be his soul mate until forever waves goodbye – with a smile on her face that derides everything you believe in.

The water is quite chilly, his hair now a plastered frame around his face as he resurfaced after diving in. Yoochun’s arms pulled him forward into warmth that made his own body curl in involuntarily.

“See, it’s not that bad.” Junsu looked at him, glaring daggers and clinging on for life—

And then it happened:

A touch (more like a prod) of a foreign silky texture that sent a bone-clattering chill through the frightened boy. A second that lasted an eternity too long and left his lungs screaming for air, and boy did he scream with them.

“IT TOUCHED ME!” Yoochun barely held buoyancy as Junsu thrashed against the water, his screams ringing in the older boy’s ears, a slur of sharks and dead and something along the lines of forever and love.

And gods forbid Junsu was pledging everlasting love in his frenzy of flailing limbs because it was making Yoochun’s chest swell.

“Su,” The younger boy’s uproar had diminished to a defeated kind of rocking and Yoochun wondered at the strength of his own legs for keeping them afloat as he quieted Junsu’s sobs. “You’ll scare them away.”

Junsu choked on his own bewilderment.

Scare away the sharks? Well why on Earth would he want to do that?

And then he saw it. Through the sparkling water that seemed to soar around them as the animal dived once again into the ocean’s depths.

Yoochun’s smile reached his ears as Junsu’s features changed drastically from a horrid look of terror to a trance of wonder and excitement that was waiting to burst from his small body.

So, as Junsu worked up the courage to actually touch (and eventually play with) the playful sea mammal, he decided that he had the best boyfriend in the world.

Yoochun looked on in unsurpassed joy as he thought something along the same lines.

randomness.

2008-07-09T05:37:13Z

You Are A: Puppy!

Beloved by all, puppies are energetic, playful, and loving. Your playful and outgoing nature is part of what makes you a puppy. Known for their loyalty, puppies make great pets for young and old alike. And an innocent puppy face can melt anyone's heart!

You were almost a: Pony or a Bear Cub
You are least like a: Groundhog or a Chipmunk What Cute Animal Are You?

Ehh ..
(Color coded for better understanding.)
Ok this was my train of thought.
Dog = Perro (in spanish)
Female of Perro is Perra.
Perra can also mean = Bitch.
So in conclusion :: I'm a bitch.
Yay for me.

IT'S ALL GONE!

2008-07-09T04:51:35Z

THE WORLD HATES ME.

Aaaaaaaargh.

Ok. As soon as things start to look up everything crashed back down. First, I lose someone really close (to another person who is really close gofigure), then MY USB SNAPS IN TWO. What the fuck. EVERYTHING IS GONE. My brushes, my textures, my writing stuff, my DBSK pictures, music, other pictures. ALL OF IT GONE.
I swear if I can't get it fixed of even get the data off of it and put it on another usb I will just die of frustration.
I wanna go home. I miss you Harmony.

To top it off, today, I wrote the whole next chapter to Nighttime Tears and half of the next chapter of Relaxation Time. How fucking convenient that the one day I do something productive, my usb decides to kill itself.
I'm not sure if I'll be up to rewriting everything anytime soon. I'll try and find a place to take it and see if something will work out.

You know something is really wrong when you yearn to be at school.

(one more thing. there's this random chick in my driver's ed that insists that I'm a lesbian. wtf.)

E D I T ::

BECAUSE IMOUTO KNOWS HOW TO CHEER ME UP.
Seriously, that mix of Purple Line and that beat (excluding Justin's out of place and random cuts) IS SO HOT. (I love you Harmony!)

A couple drabbles

2008-07-06T04:32:53Z

A random thing I decided to do to get my mind off of things. Prompts taken from the DBSK Random Pairing/Prompt Generator.

Yoochun x Changmin / Listen closely

Title: Heart Beats
Rating: PG

I often wonder if you could even begin to grasp how much I love this. I wonder if I would even be able to find the words to describe it. This. Us. Being with you.

Curled so impossibly close to you that I can’t tell which limbs are mine and which are yours. Merged into this heap of warmth and love and other things that escape my comprehension.

And I absolutely love it. Because not even the hype of being on stage in front of thousands of obsessive fanatics and doing what I was born to do can compare to this. No, this surpasses any other sensation my body could possibly endure.

Your heartbeat is rhythmical against my cheek, and I know that it is the most beautiful music to ever exist. It is a beat that is so in synch with my own that I frequently hypothesize that our hearts are one.

And just maybe, they are.

Changmin x Junsu / You love me because you lie
Title: Beautiful Lies
Rating: PG-15

A/N : This one came straight from my heart and is for a friend that I won’t name.

Junsu knows his life is based on dishonesty. Deceit that runs as deep as his blood, masking every positive aspect of himself. It’s a web that he has tangled himself in, to a point where he couldn’t live without it.

I love you, I love you, I fucking love you.

It’s like an addiction. A daily fix that needs to be fulfilled. A need, that if not satisfied would break him; regardless of the fact that satisfying it fractures his heart anyway.

But it’s a somewhat better kind of broken. He’d rather lie to himself. The lies are real. The lies are real. There are no lies.

It’s better than admitting. It’s better than facing a truth that would hurt him more than a lie ever could.

Lie to me, lie to me, fucking lie to me.

Jaejoong x Changmin / Dream of me
Title: Dreams
Rating: PG-15

A/N : seriously, I had an idea for this one, but then I started writing and it got out of hand so yeah. There’s a lot of stuff in here that really has nothing to do with the prompt lol. You can skip this one if you’d like!

Changmin dreams of chocolate waterfalls and all you can eat buffets. He dreams of prepaid porn (the good kind) and high-speed internet.

In his dreams, he lives on stage. He dreams of not getting mobbed by fans and being able to pick out his own wardrobe.

He dreams of a place where rules actually held volumes of reason. Where every infant has a loving family with no financial worries. A world where minds aren’t bent solely on self-profit. A world where a thriving economy feeds every mouth and there is no such thing as hunger.

Changmin dreams of formerly incurable diseases, empty hospitals and empty prisons. He dreams of places where colors are worshiped instead of disrespected. Where race and gender make no difference among people.

He dreams of a world where he can kiss JaeJoong in public and not be spat on by a blindfolded society that has a huge stick up its ass.

Changmin dreams of pale skin that is so very soft to the touch, plump lips that make his heart swell, eyes that mesmerize and a smile that outshines the sun; of incarnated perfection that holds him as he slumbers.

JaeJoong x Yunho / Wilt
Title: A Rose
Rating: PG-13

JaeJoong is surprised at how much life resembles a flower. He thinks of his life as a rose. Beautifully vivid in all its glory with solid defenses in form of vicious thorns that protect its vulnerably stunning interior.

And life needs everything a flower does to live. Sunlight (his smiles), fertile soil (his embrace), water (his kisses), carbon dioxide (his love).

It’s a balance that needs to be fulfilled in order for a flower (him) to bloom into what he was destined to be – whether it be a gorgeous rose or a dandelion.

Because a flourishing flower needs love and care. Because without love and care a flower would wither, shrivel up and die.

So when an overcast sky darkens the day with a raincloud that is determined to drown the earth (he watches the other’s back as he leaves), JaeJoong is astonished at how a wilting flower is so comparable to his life.

All dedicated to Rin ( pavor_nocturnum</lj> ) because I think it's about damned time I dedicated something to you bb<3

damn you world

2008-07-03T05:47:01Z

Seriously. This is like the worse summer of my freaking life. And the sad part is it's like.. one of my last. Next summer will be my last summer in high school and the last time I come up here with my family and so far it has sucked ass. I miss my friends in Panama. A lot. This is the first time I've felt this homesick. And then all my friends here are either off looking for colleges (I get along better with seniors -shrug-) or out getting wasted to the point of major brain damage. I'm really getting sick of it all. This is probably the loneliest I've ever felt. And damnit imouto is in Texas and doesn't have a computer. And dongyshu is in NY and has totally abandoned me. And everyone else is in Panama at the beach while I'm here freezing fucking my ass off completely alone. And why aren't random DBSK videos cheering me up?! Fuck. Does this mean I'm slipping out of the fandom?! And why why why do I have to feel like shit in the summer? Can't this wait until school starts and I can occupy my typical overdramatic teenage brain with something more productive? Fuckity fuck fuck fuck. Damn you world. I wanna go home and at the same time I am home. Which... leaves me with no where to go? So confused. God I hate feeling like this.

new layout~

2008-06-29T17:37:24Z

FINALLY! Gosh. took me freaking forever.
But yeah, new layout!! It's gonna take me a while to get used to but yay~
Still working on a header~
I'm going to finish twinnie's first.
Next is a fic list~

Happy Birthday!

2008-06-29T05:44:34Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! mojo_viking

Title: Badwords
Raitng: NC-17
Pairing: JaeMin

A/N: sorry if it seems blah xD ~~I wrote it in 15 mins~~

“Ah, fuck,” The younger boy’s eyes widened as the singer cursed quite loudly from his position over the stove.

Changmin stared. He had never actually heard JaeJoong swear before. And to top it off, it was the f word.

The older boy growled at the unresponsive stove.

“Damn thing— what?” He looked at Changmin, who was still staring, and poked the younger boy’s ribs.

“You swore,” JaeJoong rolled his eyes at the boy’s choked reply.

“So what?” Changmin could do nothing but gawk at the older one.

“So you’re supposed to be setting a good example for me—”

“Joongie!” Yunho trudged into the room. “Is dinner almost done?”

“Hyung! Jae swore,” Yunho looked at the older one. “He said the f word,”

“JaeJoong,”

Only a part of Changmin felt bad for the scolding that was about to take place, directed at his boyfriend. But then again, he always got scolded, and never did Jae stand up for him.

Most likely because most of the time it was in fact JaeJoong himself who scolded Changmin.

“Is dinner going to be done soon?”

Changmin glared at the leader as Yunho idly rubbed his stomach.

“The stove isn’t working,”

Yunho paused, before grabbing the phone.

“HEY GUYS IS CHINESE FOOD OK WITH YOU?”

When no response came from the living room, Yunho strode out of the kitchen, yelling at the pair on the couch.

Changmin glowered after him bitterly.

So much for scolding—

“Minnie,” The puff of hot breath made shivers go down his spine. “Where you trying to get me into trouble?”

How did JaeJoong get behind him?

Why was he so close?

With a gulp, he answered, “Maybe,”

A surprised whimper was torn from his mouth when Jae nipped his neck lightly.

“That’s not nice of you.”

The younger boy gulped again, his body involuntarily arching into Jae’s soft touches.

“I think,” Hands ghosted up his shirt and over developing abs. “You should get some punishment,” A nipple was tweaked between playful fingers and Changmin tried to control his saliva flow.

“F-for what?” JaeJoong smirked, noticing Changmin’s already labored breathing.

“For being such a mean boyfriend ,of course,” The younger boy shivered, the small quakes racking through Jae’s body as well.

“A-ah,” JaeJoong let his tongue lave at the crook of Changmin’s neck, soothing over previous love bites. “Shit,”

Jae stopped, his fingers just barely touching the semi- hardness constricted by the jeans they had just undone.

“Changmin, you shouldn’t swear,” A small growl made Jae smirk and his fingers grasped Changmin’s cock.

The younger boy gave a throaty moan, his hips moving against Jae’s hands in a desperate need for more.

“Jae – fuck… tease,” Jae nibbled on the other’s ear lobe, his hands slowing on Changmin’s length.

“Min, you really should stop saying such bad words,”

Changmin whimpered, letting Jae push him gently into the wall. The older boy shed Changmin’s pants, pulling his own down to his ankles.

“Gods, Jae – hurry,” Jae chuckled, his finger caressing the curve of Changmin’s ass.

“Patience babe,” Changmin gave another small growl, pushing his hips back against Jae’s crotch. He smiled when the other’s breath hitched.

Changmin doesn’t know where Jae got the lube from but he didn’t care, because he is too busy undulating against Jae’s fingers and whining for more.

“Jae— damn it, just fuck me already,” A rather rough thrust into him made the younger boy moan and Jae pulled out.

“You swear too much,” Jae is panting against his neck and Changmin’s knees buckle when he feels the other’s cock against his entrance.

“Yeah, and you fucking like it,” With a grunt Jae pushes in, drawing a yelp from Changmin’s lips.

Jae doesn’t give a second’s hesitation before pulling out and thrusting back in, Changmin’s whimpers now stretched into long moans and encouraging groans that made Jae crazy with lust, the older boy pounding into his younger lover with abandon.

And then Changmin screams and Jae grunts at the added tightness, angling his thrusts to draw more of those sounds.

“Shit Jae—make me come,” Thoughts are fleeting and Jae instinctively curls his fingers around Changmin’s cock, pumping to the pace of his thrusts.

With a distinctively loud scream, Changmin explodes in his hand, clamping down on his cock and making his eyes roll.

Jae’s rocking makes Changmin sigh and mewl and as the older boy comes inside of him he moans at the warmth.

“Fuck.” Changmin smiles, his chest heaving with every pant.

A/N: Hope you liked it Maya <333 Have a great day!!!

In The Shower

2008-06-29T03:37:19Z

title: In the Shower
rating: PG-13ish (inexplicit)
pairing: JaeHo

A/N: response for drabble challenge at dbsk_flashfic

JaeJoong only cries in the shower. Because well, it is easier to break down when no one is watching. It’s easier when tepid rain camouflages salty droplets. Easier to fool yourself into thinking clean water can cleanse tainted emotion.

Warm arms (warm in a way boiling shower water can never compare) wrap around him, holding him up straight when his knees buckle and bare feet threaten to slide against wet tile. His back muscles relax from being startled into constriction and he melts against the other’s chest.

JaeJoong hopes his tears are hidden well enough among the clement raindrops and chokes on a tensed giggle. Maybe they were, because the other boy simply tightens his grip and kisses JaeJoong’s shoulder, breath unnaturally gentle against his fair skin.

Maybe it is enough, to keep him from his own extremities. The other boy is doing a good job of distracting JaeJoong from his thoughts, fingers caressing down his spine and a nose nuzzled against the crook of his neck. The older boy gives a shaky sigh and wonders if it’s not just another attempt to conceal himself; feigned relief.

For a moment, JaeJoong thinks Yunho might know. JaeJoong decides he doesn’t care.

because I'm an alcoholic?

2008-06-25T01:35:43Z

I'm not really. But this convo rocked my socks~

[c=21][b]- chels . .* Joongie <33 Twinnie love <33 [/c=1][/b] says:

lmao

what kinda of wine?

red or white

[c=#63ADE4][b]- Hårmon¥...°

???? ???? ?????? [7d] ·$15[/b][/c] says:

ive only had vodka and wine o_o

white

[c=21][b]- chels . .* Joongie <33 Twinnie love <33 [/c=1][/b] says:

lol u didnt like it?

u might like sangria

its sweeter

[c=#63ADE4][b]- Hårmon¥...°

???? ???? ?????? [7d] ·$15[/b][/c] says:

ive had sangria before

its ok

[c=21][b]- chels . .* Joongie <33 Twinnie love <33 [/c=1][/b] says:

i like eating the fruit out of it

thats my favorite part

i eat everyones fruit

[c=#63ADE4][b]- Hårmon¥...°

???? ???? ?????? [7d] ·$15[/b][/c] says:

that sounds very wrong.

[c=21][b]- chels . .* Joongie <33 Twinnie love <33 [/c=1][/b] says:

o.o

[c=#63ADE4][b]- Hårmon¥...°

???? ???? ?????? [7d] ·$15[/b][/c] says:

LOL

[c=21][b]- chels . .* Joongie <33 Twinnie love <33 [/c=1][/b] says:

wtf. i mean i eat the fruit out of everyones sangria!

Eh.

2008-06-24T00:06:00Z

My dad finally leaves tomorrow. Uhm. Is it wrong to want him to be a couple countries away from me? Well, I kinda do. Ok, I really do. So sick of him. Like you know how parents always say "I'm not purposely trying to screw up your life"? LIES. All lies. xDD

Seriously, I now think that my dad has a daily schedule:

Wake Up

Brush Teeth

Yell at Chelsea

Breakfast

Watch T.V. (while yelling at Chelsea)

Eat Lunch

Yell at Chelsea Some More

Eat Dinner

Ignore Chelsea

Watch T.V.

Yell at Chelsea

Send Chelsea to Bed (just because you can)

Sound fun huh? Ugh. Anyway, he’s leaving. So, five weeks of yayness. xDDD

Maybe I can try and enjoy my summer?

I miss twinnie. -sulks-

Pocket Aces

2008-06-23T04:51:07Z

Title: Pocket Aces
Pairing: MinHo
Rating: PG?
Word-count: 200

A/N: This was originally for the drabble prompt "Luck" on

dbsk_flashfic but yeah, I didn't make the timeline. I found it on my computer today and decided to post it anyway~ (MinHo because umma has rubbed off on me)

Life is a gamble, Yoochoun had once told him. You have to lose some to win some.

Changmin wishes life was so easy, as to walk into a casino with a pocket full of hard-earned cash and the intention to lose it all for an illusion of prosperity.

He imagines himself at a poker table, his shirt collar pulled up to his ears and his sunglasses making it slightly harder to see. He practices concealing his emotions, lest the other players read him.

He loses himself in strategy, ready to take on everything. And he does, he takes on the world. Reality crumbles in his hands and Luck laughs at his nameless loss.

But it’s ok, because pocket aces can’t be beat and he’s bet it all. He has bet smiles and warmth and love that is given to him willingly. But it’s ok, because pocket aces can’t be beat and his money will only double.

The River drowns him in the color red, a flush to kill and Luck’s cackle echoes in his head. So he loses smiles and warmth and love that is ripped from him forcefully, his pockets emptied.

Changmin wonders when he will have lost enough

ANOTHER MEME!

2008-06-22T04:06:19Z

Gosh. Total memeage (huh) lately!!!

→ so, i wanna know more about my friends in my f-list. you don't have to do this, but it'd be nice, right? it's not hard and it only takes a few min's!

→ all you have to do is fill in the questions...really not hard peoples!

→ pinched from junsubabyx3 <3333

o1. Name:
o2. Birthday:
o3. Where do you live:
o4: What are you studying/What are you working as:
o5. What makes you happy:
o6. What are you listening to now/have listened to last:
o7. What is particularly good/bad about my LJ:
o8. An interesting fact about you:
o9. Are you in love/have a crush at the moment:
10. Favorite place to be:
11. Favorite lyric:
12. Best time of the year:
13. Weirdest food you like:

RECOMMEND
o1. A film:
o2. A book:
o3. A song:
o4: A band:

FANDOM
o1. Favorite Fandom:
o2. OTP/OT3:
o3. Icon/Fic Journal (so I can join):

PLUS
o1. One thing you like about me:
o2. Two things you like about yourself:
o3. Put this in your lj so I can tell you what I think of you?

OMG MORE PICS?!

2008-06-22T01:21:43Z

Omg Ok. More pictures of me. Taken today, while extremely bored in the car. xDDD

Lmao. No, I'm not pissed.

KISSES FOR TWINNIE AND UMMA<3333

PURPLE HAIR! PURPLE LINE! DBSK LOOOVE!!!
Boob and bra action. Ignore that xDDD

Camwhoring is so much funn~ xDDDD